The jump-off line is just “I forgive you”, from Phase One by Dilruba Ahmed. The title is from I am talking to Life as an entity when I wrote this piece.
I forgive you for derailing my plan for a linear life and teaching me that everything is a choice.
I forgive you for not giving me someone who grew up with me that turned into a lover, someone I could trust.
I forgive you for not giving me someone who really knows me as a friend but do I really need someone like that outside when I already have someone like that at home? I can’t luck out twice, can I?
I forgive you for not giving me an intact family though in truth my ‘broken’ one was so much better than when it was intact.
I forgive you for letting me choose to love someone who doesn’t love me back. I learnt that that was not the way to go for relationships but taking the plunge was worth something, I guess.
Author’s note: The relationship mentioned in the last paragraph was not a romantic relationship. I was talking about my cousin who grew up with me.
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