Tales of Inspiration (1)

“Where do you get your inspiration from?” That seems to be a FAQ for writers. So I thought I would answer it here by describing how each of my story ideas came to me. It would also be a good way for me and my future readers to acquaint ourselves so they get a glimpse of what they will be getting into.

But first of all, let me briefly recap my personal answer to where do I get inspiration from. Actually, it’s not actually my personal answer, more like an answer I read that I felt personally clicked with me. Essentially, it has 2 components: 1) external impetus: information and ideas you gather from books, TV, personal experience etc.; 2) the internal processing of your mind where you modify and/or combine the ideas you gather from outside sources

I think I’ve mentioned this before but my first recent attempt at novelling was actually this mock fan-fic based on an online novel that was abandoned half way and therefore I never got to see its ending. The writing wasn’t great (in fact it was quite amateurish) but I was quite into the story – it was novel in how it introduced an ‘ethnically Chinese’ protagonist into a fantasy setting based on Islam society in a desert. Also, I can see some deep themes and was rather overcome by emotion in certain bits of the story. So when I first decided to dip my toes into novel writing, I thought why not start with this story because then I could save a fair amount of time with the planning by keeping everything the same as the online novel. Now that plan quickly unravelled as I started to want to fix plot inconsistencies etc.

And yet, all was not wasted since I later came up with a prequel that was quite distinct from the original- it has completely different characters because it’s set generations back and the overall society also had a large difference. However, I became and am still uncertain over the ethical and legal considerations over actually publishing the prequel since I was still borrowing elements of the world from the original work and plus I was also rather stuck when I wrote up the outline for it so I decided to not to pursue the project. Still, I think it’s a good illustration of how inspiration works under the external impetus+internal processing system. In this case, the external impetus was clearly that abandoned online novel that I read while my internal processing came up with another related but totally different story idea.

That’s it for today. Let me know if you have thoughts on what I’ve shared before. I’m not sure what to blog about for next week yet but I’m trying to keep the content of my blog balanced so the next post of this series would be sometime next month.

Meta Fiction: Shuang Gu Sword (Double Branched Sword)

Author’s notes: this sub borrows heavily from actual Chinese history and folklore (at least, so far as the legend section goes but a fair bit was just the author adapting real history to her own use).

Appearance:

It is a set of two short swords (housed within the same scabbard) that weigh approximately the same but one (the female sword) is shorter than the other (the male sword) by a few Chinese inches*. Neither of these swords are ornately decorated but to a trained eye they show superb craftsmanship.

*The male sword is about 0.9m long in modern terms while the female one is about 0.8m in length

Legends:

Crafting

The Shuang Gu Jian is well-known as the weapon of Liu Bei, lord of the Shu Kingdom during the Period of the Three Kingdoms. The story of its crafting is not really known except for the speculation that it was crafted by a local smith as a special gift to Liu Bei for freeing the region Han Zhong from the rule of the villainous Cao Cao, lord of the Wei Kingdom. It was recently put forth as a theory that this set of weapons was actually the long lost set of swords Gan Jiang and Mo Xie crafted by and named after the famous swordsmith couple in the era of the Spring and Autumn Warring States and somehow recovered by Liu Bei. Neither version could be proved (or for that matter disproved) since this legendary set of swords had long been lost.

Ownership History

After Liu Bei passed away, the Shuang Gu Sword went to his eldest son and successor Liu Shan. Later when Liu Shan surrendered to the Wei court, he gifted the weapon to Cao Cao as a tribute. It was said that this greatly pleased Cao Cao, who subsequently kept the weapon of his strongest opponent lovingly among his personal collection of trophies.

Upon his succession, Cao Pi- surviving eldest son of Cao Cao, attempted to kill his younger brother Cao Zhi, who had been his chief rival in terms of contending to be the crown prince. The sequence of events from this attempt that culminated in the forming of the Seven-steps Verse is already well-known. In addition, one text recorded (via oblique references) that after this unsuccessful attempt, Cao Pi gifted the Shuang Gu Sword to Cao Zhi. It was conjectured that such an action was done in mockery on the part of Cao Pi, using their father and his chief rival as analogies for himself and his younger brother respectively.

And from this point on, the whereabouts of the Shuang Gu Sword passed out of official records but periodically, rumours would surface of an extraordinary pair of swords that is similar to the Shuang Gu Sword. In each of these tales, this pair of swords confers a totally different yet similarly spectacular ability to its owner.

Amongst them, the most dramatic relates to that of the legendary Xue Cheng Yue in the era known as the Northern Song period, the leader of the rebels in the Northern part of the Dragon Empire that was held by the Jurchen invaders at that time (who adopted this particular name to declare his intentions of taking over the mantle of responsibility for repelling the Jurchen invaders from the patriotic general Yue Fei). However, it is hard to ascertain whether Xue Cheng Yue was an actual person that existed or merely a mythical figure that came about from the populace’s laments over the demise of the tragic hero Yue Fei at the hands of the villain Qin Hui. Consequently, there are two schools of thoughts divided on their belief regarding the authenticity of the ‘subsequent sightings’ of the Shuang Gu Sword. One firmly believes that the Shuang Gu Sword did surface from time to time and moreover that it is one of the remarkable weapons made from wishsteel that allowed it to adapt its properties to its owner. Meanwhile, the other stream maintains that these other weapons were in all probability simply replicas. As for the reported special properties, it was thought that they were merely embellishments that were wont to occur in these local legend/folklore type stories.

Special Properties

According to the Romance of the Three Kingdoms, the Shuang Gu Sword is a loyal weapon, much as its master Liu Bei. Allegedly, it would fly out of the grasp of Cao Cao of its own accord whenever he attempted to hold either of the blades in his hands. Nothing so dramatic was mentioned when this weapon was in possession of either Liu Shan or Cao Zhi. This was taken to be a sign that the Shuang Gu Sword did not find either worthwhile masters for itself even though they were not as repellent to the sword as the most heated foe of its rightful master.

Of the ‘subsequent sightings’ of the Shuang Gu Sword, most accounts did not delve into exactly what the special boons this legendary weapon gave to their owners. Where a property was mentioned, different versions arose. For example, in the Northern part of the Dragon Empire, it was passed down in legends that Xue Chen Yue held a set of blades that were bloodthirsty- it was said that the more blood they were fed, the more voracious their appetites grew, such that they would seek out bodies to cut down of their own accords. In the Southern, though, most believe that either he wielded a pair of swords that gave him the ability to make his troops invisible or move like the wind in combat.

Remarkable Women in Ancient China (3)- Ban Zhao

Who is she:

  • The first female historian in Chinese history, a renowned politician and poet
  • Author of the influential text “Lessons for Women” that is inextricably linked to female suppression

Notable life events:

  • Born into the prestigious Ban family (which was reputedly the descendants of a famous philosopher in the Warring State Period) as the daughter of Ban Biao, one of the most influential scholar of his time. She had two elder brothers: the eldest Ban Gu who was also a historian and the renowned Ban Zhao who turned from a scholar into a general and was instrumental in securing China’s western border. Note that the Zhaos in the two siblings’ names were actually different Chinese characters- the Zhao in her brother’s name meant surpass whereas hers meant bright
  • Married at the age of 14 to Cao Shi Shou from the same province, widowed early and chose to remain widowed throughout her life
  • Instrumental in getting permission from the Emperor to allow Ban Zhao to retire from his post at the western border and return to their homeland. Unfortunately, he died soon after arrival such that the two of them never got to see each other again
  • Invited by the Emperor to finish the historical text that her father started and her eldest brother Ban Gu left unfinished due to his untimely demise due to politics
  • Viewed as an instructor by the Empress and concubines of the Emperor and coming to be known as Cao Da Gu (roughly meaning Big Aunt Cao). In particular, only elderly women of high prestige and virtue at that time would be referred to as Da Gu
  • Authored the text “Lessons for Women” in her old age so that her female descendants would know how to properly behave when they were married

Why is she remarkable:

  • There were many renowned female poets and politicians throughout Chinese history. In comparison, female historians were much rarer. In fact, I couldn’t find any other mention of other female historians (that might be just the limit of Google but I also think even if there are others, female historians would still be less numerous compared to poets and politicians)
  • While she herself was a highly influential female figure outside the home, her “Lessons for Women” became one of the texts that later propagated the main tenets of female repression and led to a more subdued role of women in society

Moonlake’s thoughts on her:

I found it hard to conceptualise her as a person and so I can’t really hold an opinion about her. I’ve previously discussed a little my attitude on gender roles but in the case of Ban Zhao, I don’t think you can really fault her for the outcome that her book led to greater repression. Sure, it basically espoused the view that women should be obedient and weak but I think we need to put it into the context that she was happily married (note that she chose to remain widowed) in a society where marriages were predominantly arranged by parents and sometimes without any consultation with the one who was about to get married! So of course she could afford to be obedient and weak if her husband was treating her well and given that she wrote the book for her direct descendants, I think she probably assumed that all women could be happily married if they behaved like her.

What my Favourite Characters tell me about Myself

The previous two posts have all been about my writing so I thought I would change the pace a bit by talking about a topic that leans towards the reading side: a reflection of the attributes of my favourite characters and what they show about me.  

Firstly, I like a female protagonist who is proud. I mean, I like Mr Darcy too so it’s not just female necessarily but I definitely have a special fondness for female protagonists who are proud so Lizzy Bennett is of course high on my list. As for connection to myself, it’s probably obvious but I am proud (though most probably won’t guess it) and I like being proud. That is not at all the same as being arrogant, just saying but you get the idea.

Secondly, I have a fondness for characters who are a bit ‘bumbling’- that’s the closest word I can come to. I cannot think of a good well-known example in fantasy example for your clumsy mage archetype and the ‘duckling to swan’ female protagonists that are more prominent features of women fiction. In similar veins, I like characters who are a bit odd in some way or socially awkward. For example, I’m rather taken with Sue Grafton’s Kinsey Millhone, a female sleuth who has a general people issue that crops up in many areas including relatives, romance and when she works on her cases.

Finally, I have a preference for characters who are morally good. If you wonder how come I’ve never given an example in relation to my favourite genre of fantasy, well, this is where it comes in. In at least 80% of the fantasy I’ve read and enjoyed, they are good triumph over evil stories so you get the picture. Having said that, I think I’ve come to appreciate grey more than black and white as I age so my definition of good has changed or relaxed. But I’ve never been interested in a ‘fallen into the darkness’ story such as how Anniken Skywalker became Darthvader. I think this reflects my own moral stance but also I think it’s just part of my reading taste in general.

And there you go: I think that’s a pretty neat summary of myself at your disposal. 🙂

Sneak Peek: My Tentative Next Series

What?! You have a next series already lined up when you haven’t officially debuted with a single book yet? I know most of you are thinking this but it is true. In fact, if I look at my commercial project list document (to be distinguished from my idea journal where anything goes although the distinction is pretty lost by now), I have a trilogy for which I know the core idea and already started a preliminary outline for book 1, another trilogy for which I had a one-liner synopsis of each book and at least two other series that I felt drawn to or a bit more well-formed than the state I call “trapped in the nebulous” which is basically just an idea.

Anyway, today’s post is about the trilogy for which there is already an outline for book 1. It’s my tentative next series because I operate like an artist which is to say completely on whims. The core idea of this trilogy is this: it is going to be about three women that immediately succeed each other within this same lineage; in other words, grandmother, mother and daughter. Furthermore, the grandmother and the daughter are going to be mirror images of each other where the mother is going to be the odd one out.

To be honest, this idea has evolved a lot from the beginning. At first, it was going to be the repercussion of a single deed that the grandmother’s done on the mother and the daughter. The story itself was essentially about this deed being told three times, from each of the three women’s perspectives. But well, as it happened, now the story still retained this aspect but the focus is very different. It’s much more about how individuals with different characters perceive and react to the same set of events.

Those who have followed my blog for a while might have noticed that I have a fascination for world building. So for this series, my mind has concocted a fantasy musical instrument that represents the dynamics between the grandmother, mother and daughter. I shall leave a bit of space for imagination before I have much more substantial progress on this series. The other aspect I will mention is that somehow my mind decided to thrust this into the Han dynasty and this will involve a fair bit of political intrigue at the Imperial Palace.  

Meta Fiction- Han Yu

Appearance:

An irregular shaped block of white crystalline rock, on top of which six strings of undefined material lay.

Special Property:

The strings of Han Yu exudes a slight chill that can be felt if one passes one’s hand close above them. However, upon actual contract with human flesh, they start to exude mild warmth. This property gave rise to the term *Han Yu Sheng Wen (literally Cold Jade giving birth to warmth) which is used to describe a pleasant surprise.

*This term is based on actual Chinese characters but the term itself is made up

Benefit:

Tunes played from Han Yu have a calming effect on their audiences and also provide them with better mind focus.

Drawback:

When played, coldness is summoned to a radius approximately equal to its maximum hearing range. The drop in temperature is a very gradual process. However, that is not to say that the effect could not be lethal*. The well-known incident in which a gathering between several masters of the guqin, among them Master Plum Blossom who happened to be the owner of Han Yu and was using it to perform his masterpiece “The three variations of plum blossom” at the time, resulted in all attendees being frozen to death remained the most lamented event among those with a true appreciation for music.

Lore:

Reputedly, Han Yu was not made by conventional craftsmanship but rather a product of nature. It was said that the strings of Han Yu were actually morning dew condensed into line form by Snow Spirits who were the original owner of this legendary instrument that have now fallen into mortal hands.

Twist:

Whenever Han Yu is played, it acts as a beacon to Snow Spirits. Moreover, it not only attracts them but the sound produced from Han Yu acts as an aphrodisiac that put them ‘in heat’. In fact, the drawback of this instrument is entirely attributable to the tendency of this instrument to put Snow Spirits in heat.


Writing updates (7)

I’m now a little more than halfway through draft 0.5, the next draft was to be draft 0.8 before I left for my holidays but now I think there will be a draft 0.6 and then I don’t know how many drafts it will be until I feel I call something draft 1. When I started on this project, that is not how I envisioned things to be. I thought the iterations would mostly apply at the outlining stage. But I guess what I can take away from this is that every novel project is really different and so all I can do is keep learning and keep experimenting.

The other major update I have on it is that I decided to make the deadline for completing draft 0.5 the end of June this year as opposed to my birthday in October. After all, I did get up to the halfway mark in three months’ time so there is no point for me to give myself extra room to procrastinate.

Having said all of the above, I am a long way from debutting, especially given my ambition to finish three novels before debutting. But I am always moving forward and I’m content with this for now.

Writing what I Read: A Brief Reflection

I don’t consider myself widely read in that I mainly read three genres (fantasy, mystery and historical fiction) and I only write in the genre of Chinese fantasy (actually I do have ideas pertaining to traditional fantasy but Chinese fantasy is what has my attention right now). In that sense, I think Chinese fantasy certainly encapsulates both the fantasy and historical fiction part of my reading diet.

Now, how does mystery figure into my writing? A few years ago, I would have told you that it doesn’t. But now I would say that it creeps into my outlining process. Those who has followed my blog for a while knows that my outlines are plot or at least events-centric so basically I have the tendency of adding something to the story (could be a minor character, could be an item, could be an event) that hangs there for a while. And it’s funny how I never spotted that before until I showed one of my writer friends that abandoned trial novel attempt and he actually commented that ‘hiding stuff from readers seems to be my style’.

Now, every writer is different. I know a writer who’s never read a murder mystery but is currently writing one (although it has a literary fiction bend and might yet be classified as one yet). How about you, my writer readers? Feel free to let me know in comments.

Moonlake’s Book Discoveries- March 2019

River of Stars by Guy Gavriel Kay

Firstly, as an ethnic Chinese reading this novel, I commend Kay on his research and besides minor quibbles, I really think his fictional Northern Song Chinese setting came across as authentic and compelling.

I had never read him or Chinese historical fantasy before so I had little expectations of what I will be getting. I was pleased to learn that this is a tale where Kay re-imagines history in a fantasy setting even though the fantasy element is on the slight side. Nevertheless, since my one true love in reading remains fantasy and I know of the major history events that this book relates this does capture my interest. I’m also satisfied with the open-ended ending which leaves me with some hope that Ren Daiyan, the fictional equivalent of Yue Fei, potentially did not meet his bad end (I doubt it given his character but at least the ending dangles some hope in front of you). There was one point where I hoped the ending would be more positive towards Ren Daiyan but I think the current ending fits the book better so I’m content.

Overall, I think Kay is a writer that I will want to add to my list of favourite authors. I think he has a good handle of the omniscient voice even though it made the opening (specifically chapter 1, I definitely started getting into the book after chapter 2 when Lin Shan appeared) a bit slow and at times I felt like the omniscient voice was interference (but other times it felt insightful and deep). I also appreciate his prose- lyrical and full of imagery. However, the main characters (Ren Daiyan and Lin Shan) are only a part of this epic tale, small vehicles in some sense. I do like epic tales and I like this aspect of this book well enough but this does stop me from bonding with the characters and does take away from this book.

Songs of Insurrection by JC Kang

I DNFed this book, the start of the Dragon Songs Saga. I got to the half way mark and then I just didn’t feel like I have the patience to keep on reading it. Perhaps because I came to this straight after River of Stars, I had high expectations of a Chinese fantasy series written by a fellow ethnic Chinese. But I think why I DNFed it was partially this high expectations, partially I was the wrong reader for this series and partially I just had issues with various aspects of the story or the writer’s way of doing things.

Firstly, I didn’t feel like this story really needed to be set in a fictional ancient China and in fact, this story was more like ancient China and a bunch of ethnic Chinese characters shoved into the conventional fantasy setting than an authentic Chinese fantasy story like River of Stars. Specifically, I felt like the conveyance of Chinese elements were primarily delivered through scattered Chinese terms emphasised via italics and sometimes the interchangeable use of specific Chinese terms and their meaning in English just seemed completely random to me. Perhaps that’s my unique experience as a Chinese and this book is really targeted at the ESB market so I’m just the wrong audience for this.

The other aspect in which I think I’m mismatched with this book is that the portrayal of the female protagonist Princess Kaiya mainly resulted in my boredom and disbelief. I felt like perhaps this book should be labelled under romance as a large part of the first half of the book seemed to concern Princess Kaiya being smitten with this foreign prince. This does have a narrative purpose in making readers question whether her actions are really decided by her or she was under undue influence but an unfortunate side-effect was that she was always feeling like her stomach was full of butterflies or other similar wording which really got to the point of being repetitive. Also, Princess Kaiya came across as a sheltered wall-flower who kept second-guessing her own actions and then stick to them anyway. I do get it on one level- it’s a reflection of her being a teenager and/or the Chinese upbringing where you have a fear of going against rules. But again it gets repetitive when she keeps doing that. The same goes for her emotional range-she’s forever fluctuating between determination and doubt/apprehension, even when she’s supposedly drunk (I don’t drink alcohol so I have no first hand experience to relate to but I felt like her thought pattern is the same whether she’s sober or drunk which just doesn’t seem right. I also feel like in this story she fluctuates between being sober and drunk within the span of three or four hours or that’s the way it appears to me). So all in all, whenever we arrived in a chapter in the princess’s POV, I felt an urge to skip it except for the event of the chapter. The pacing of the chapters is nice and quick, that’s the main merit I see in this book and why I stick to the half way mark. That and the other story line with Tian and Jie who were portrayed a bit better in that I couldn’t find direct fault with them but there was nothing to endear them to me either.

The above were my main disconnect from this book but some other nitpicks I also have included: the tendency for readers to get confused when a scene contains multiple sidecasts and the author’s attempt to make them distinct through coupling names and physical attributes don’t always work; world building tidbits like there being three moons and their usage in time measurement that came into the story and then had little narrative functions and sometimes only caused confusion or just in general diverted attention from the story.

Perfume: The Story of a Murderer by Patrick Suskind

Picked this up for my overseas holiday read and I think it’s a good choice- The chapters are short enough that I can breeze through it. As for the story itself, I do think it has all the qualities of a classic. While the omnipotent voice creates distance compared to contemporary novels, I am still captivated by the anti-hero of the story enough to look him up and learn that he is completely fictional. I am also impressed by the depiction of the sense of smell that is central to this novel which then branches out to the other senses. Overall, a good choice for long time readers of the mystery genre looking for a high quality light read.

A Thread of Chance (4)

Note: I am already on a 5 week holiday when this post becomes alive. I shall come back in the first week of April. And then I won’t be going away for a year and more.

Chapter 4: An Everlasting Companionship

Doom is approaching. Meng knows that he can never win against that many riders descending on them. While the two mages have shown that they can look out for themselves in single combats, he does not expect that they will fare as well with the current odds. Yet, he is getting an inch to do something, to release the pent up energy inside himself.

He hears a disturbance behind him amongst the two mages. He ignores it. If he is going down, he is going down as a man. Facing his enemies with unflinching gaze.

“Xun Zhen… Your Imperial Master Geomancer has fainted.”

What? Not now, we don’t need this. But what does it matter? We’re all going to die anyway. The mission, the mission the Captain entrusted to my hands, will be a failure. But so be it. The Captain and I, neither of us will outlive the mission. Let history make of us, and the mission, what it may. Probably just a small pen stroke if even that. Meng thinks as he glares ahead into the thundering horde speeding towards them like an unerring arrow.

The muscles around his eyes feel overworked. He can feel them twitching, disobeying his will for them to be still. He is not going to show visible signs of weakness to a band of ruffians. His honour as a warrior and an Imperial Guard dictates that he does not.

Suddenly, the riders pull up their reins, stopping just close enough to the party to display their leers. There is a taunting glint in their eyes, as if they are urging, “Come on. We will like to see you trying to run, preys.”

Meng feels a sting at the corner of his right eye as a twig-like line of sweat sashays down his forehead. He feels his pent up energy curling into a tight ball and rising to his chest where it is ready to burst any second. Captain, why must you leave? Leaving me alone with sole responsibility? How am I to properly repay your trust, now?

A trill of laughter rings out, surprisingly clear in a piercing way. “The rabbits are too scared to run. There won’t be even a chase. Not a very exciting hunt, is it?” A youth with a scar running across his left cheekbone astray a piebald mare remarks to another ruffian who has pulled up a stride behind him.

Rabbits they think us, do they? Meng’s temper explodes. I will show them how ‘timid’ we can be.

***

“Quick, take the weight of Xun Zhen off me, so that I can prepare our means of escape.” Zhang urges Meng.

Meng turn backs to hold the comatose Xun Zhen aloof by one arm. “What is the point of escape? We will be run down like game to hunters. If we are going to die at any rate, I do not want to die a coward’s death.”

“We are not dying, lad. We have the mission to complete…”

“The mission is doomed already.”

“It is not, yet.” Zhang reproaches Meng.

“Yes, yet. They don’t want to close in for the kill yet. They want to herd us and taunt us as they chase us down. They want to humiliate an Imperial Guard and take a warrior’s honour before they take his life.”

“Calm down, lad. What you say won’t happen.”

“Did you just make another divination? Is that what the omens tell you? Did the omens tell you about the Captain earlier?”

“That’s enough. Stop talking and watch. Surely you do not want your Captain to die in vain?”

Zhang takes out two small figurines of a galloping horse from his right robe sleeve. No more than inches wide on either side, they are cut out from fine cloth. They are of a strange yellow colour, like those paper charms that Daoists make to ward against ghosts and other things belonging to the nether realm. There are immaculately fine details on each of the figurines, from the facial expression of each horse as they hold their heads aloft to the way their mane bends with their movements.

Zhang throws the two figurines in the air. “Ta Sha Lao Jun Ji Ji Ru Lu Ling,” Zhang mumbles as he closes his palms together and lines up the top three fingers of each hand in a straight line while allowing the bottom two fingers to cross over to the other side. The figurines appear as if buffeted by winds and they fill up, acquiring a soul in moments, as they rapidly expand into the size of real horses. They give a loud nicker as they paw the ground, eager to be off.

Zhang mounts the one closer to himself. When he looks in front again, Meng is already astray with the body of Xun Zhen slung over in front. Together, the two of them swerve around the group of ruffians.

Meng turns his head back briefly to look at their would-be slayers. He feels maliciously satisfied with the slack jaws that he sees on quite a few faces among them. 

***

Meng looks back to measure the distance between themselves and their pursuers. This is already the sixth time? Or the seventh? He has lost count already. Their pursuers are determined and what little mirth he had at their expense earlier is already overtaken by dread. He feels regret and shame. If only he can hold onto a semblance of mind presence, he would not have delayed them so much. Now the riders on their tail seems unshakeable. It is all his fault. He has besmirched the Captain’s name and memory.

The old mage is right. The Captain nearly died in vain and all because of my own incompetence. How could I have given up so easily? Fallen so completely into the way of an empty-headed warrior only driven by fighting instincts? That is the anathema of all the training the Captain took us through.

Zhang observes the young warrior hunched over in despondency and feels for him. “Lad, your Captain is watching from the Heavens. He would not wish you grief. Let him gaze upon you in your full dignity.”

“I already lost my dignity. I was trained as an Imperial Guard but I acted like a broadsword wielding ruffian who knows nothing except kill or be killed. The Captain would feel ashamed of and for me if he is watching from the Heavens.”

“We all have lapses, there is no need to feel ashamed. Learn your lessons and move on. The Captain would understand. He will feel compassion for you rather than shame.”

“How can you know? You are not the Captain.” Meng cannot help but look back again and is alarmed at seeing the closing pursuit.

“I am a mentor too. I also have a protege that I am willing to lay down my life for. We are two of a kind, your Captain and I.”

“Thank you.” Meng blurts out with his in-held breath. “They are closing with us. We need to shake them. Can we increase speed? I am not sure how to control this horse I am riding. It does not respond to my spurrings?”

“You are approaching it the wrong way. You merely need to will it for the horse to obey. But your ego has come to the fore, interposing itself between your true will and the horse.”

“Listen to me,” Zhang speaks in a serene voice, urging Meng to relax. “Empty your mind. Get into contact with your deep conscious.”

Meng inhales and exhales rhythmically, a practice that aligns his body with his warrior’s psyche.

“Build a bridge between your wish and the steed you are riding. Think of it as a real creature of flesh and blood.” The words come to him on a breeze, easily seeping into him.

He pictures himself on his own steed, Wind-rider. He ruffles Wind-rider’s mane affectionately and gives it a firm pat on the neck. Wind-rider half-turns to look back at him and makes a soft nicker. Meng gently urges it forward with his knees and Wind-rider glides into a gallop with its powerful forelegs.

The winds tickle Meng’s face in greeting as they rush past.

“The deed is done.” Meng opens his eyes and looks back. Indeed he cannot see any more riders on their tails.

***

Puffs of dusky yellow smoke are churning in the distance. Approaching riders and a fair number of them.

Meng meets eyes with the old mage riding half a horse’s stride back at his right shoulder. Too much coincidence. He starts to swerve left but his peripheral vision has caught movement. He hears his trusted whisper that says Wait.

Turning his gaze a little to the left and training in on this direction, he sees movement resolving into another large cluster of approaching riders. Between the two bands converging on them, they will be hemmed in.

Meng looks across at the old mage who doesn’t seem perturbed. “What would you have us do?”

“Remember what I told you about control of these horses? Your will is what counts. Simply wish for a way out and it will be done. Wait and see for yourself.”

Meng is frustrated. Why can’t these mages ever talk straight? What does he mean by wait and see for myself? To see what? The horses suddenly developing wings and flying us out of here?

“We don’t change course?” Meng asks skeptically.

“No, it is not needed.”

Silently, they ride towards a closing snare. Meng looks back over his shoulder and idly wonders whether they can backtrack to avoid the trap ahead.

“What about we backtrack? Surely we have shaken off the pursuit already.”

“Have you ever wondered about the ambushes and traps lying in wait for us? This is a secret mission, why are our opponents always a step ahead of us?”

“I… no, I never thought about that,” Meng concedes, “But what has that got to do with the situation now?”

“Do you really think that we will have shaken off the pursuit so easily given what we already experienced?”

Meng is lost for words.

“Have you thought about how they kept getting in front of us?”

“You mean there’s a traitor amongst us? But that’s impossible!”

“I said no such thing. They don’t need a traitor when they can pay the right mage to cast the right spell so they can keep track of us.”

“Can you do something about this? You know, counter their magic with yours?”

“You don’t understand magic at all, lad, do you? We mages are not immortals. Magic is only something we mages wield like you wield a weapon. Can you ask any swordsman to intercept an arrow and somehow cut it?”

The two of them stop. Meng turns his mount in a quarter circle so that he can glance to the left or right, what was front or back to them, at will. His heart sinks when a dust cloud rises on his right. The old mage is right. There must have been a leak somewhere. His hands clench into a fist.

Despite the old mage’s assurance, Meng cannot help craning his neck continuously between the left and right. The first figure to emerge from the blur at the left is a gaunt, almost stick-like man with a deathly pallor. His cheeks are completely sunken in as if they have collapsed inwards. Belying such apparent weakness, however, a mad gleam shines forth like rays of light focused through a small opening. His warrior instinct tells him that it is not just any mere madness, the man will be trouble in a fight. Over to the right, he cannot yet distinguish any figures yet.

Time seems to be warped. It passes disportionately slow relative to the distance and the speed of the riders. Tong tong tong tong. Meng worries that his heart is going to fall out of his chest any minute as he continues observing the two group of riders converging on them. Like two stake boards closing in to impale them as if they are tomb raiders. The mount under him starts fidgeting as if in response to his own wish to… to do something other than stand still.

He gazes to the right. Now he can see that the band of riders as being relatively larger in size compared to the group approaching from the left. Two men ride in the front. One is a muscular thug with a beard that juts out like needles. The other almost makes Meng laugh if not for the tension he feels- a comical figure with a bald head and a pockmarked face who looks like a toad.

Meng almost feels impatient as he waits to be snapped up by the two closing jaws. He turns back to the band of riders closer to them, counting out the estimated distance to them. Fifty miles, forty, thirty, twenty, ten. Suddenly, he feels a lurch as the mount under him steps onto the air as if scaling an invisible mountain track.  It keeps climbing steadily as Meng feels disbelief. It is as good as the horses having really grown wings, he thinks as they fly out of the grasp of the closing noose.

***

Despite the passing wind scratching at Meng’s face, he is exhilarated beyond what a good ride provides him with. He is captivated by the sights he sees of the earth that they usually trod on as he looks down while flying on horseback. How amazing it is, to see as birds would see! To see the contours of the land undulating like waves or meandering like a lazy carp! Meng sees patterns from particular landmarks, a prancing rabbit here, two quiet maidens combing their hair by a river over there. It is like when he was a child when he used to see picture from clouds, a long-lost skills suddenly reacquired.

As Zhang observes the unconscious upturn in the corners of the young warrior’s mouth, he feels a temporary sense of relief. The young lad is a simple man, after all. The best cure for a wound is simply to not remember, however temporary. Besides, who is to say that frequent moments of temporary non-remembrance won’t make it into a resemblance of continuity? Zhang smiles too, unbeknownst to himself. The two have a lot of similarities, Xun Zhen and the lad. Both so simple at core. So pure. Alas, not to last. He is saddened again as his eyes light on the unconscious figure lying prone across the young warrior’s Jia Ma or Horse of Jia.

“Have you ever flown before?” Zhang turns towards the voice and a pair of eyes full of thirst for knowledge and enthusiasm greets him.

“I did not hear what you just said.” Zhang replies.

“Oh, I asked whether you had flown before.”

“Yes, once.” The pair of bright eyes eagerly proclaims Tell me more. Zhang cannot help but give in to the request.

“I was not much older than you back then, I was a student myself. We were journeying to explore a ruin and my mentor introduced me to flying just like how you were introduced.” Zhang chuckles at the recollection, “I thought he was making fun of me by not giving me prior warning and watching me fumble instead. We had some good times together, my teacher and I, and he wasn’t above pulling a trick or two on his students. But no, he wasn’t being playful that time. If he had told me earlier my misapprehension might have interfered with these horses taking to the air in the first place.”

“I almost forgot, I better teach you the incantation for these horses. You never know, it might become useful later on.”

The horses pause in mid-air and hang motionless. “What is happening?” Meng looks at the old mage quizzically.

“The horses cannot fly any higher. They’ve reached their limit.”

“Oh, then what do we do now?”

Zhang smiles, “It’s time for us to use our feet again.”

The two of them dismount after the horses spiral down from the air to trod upon the ground. Meng uprights the still comatose figure of the Imperial Master Geomancer and holds him up under his left elbow. Meng abruptly stops. He senses killing intent coalescing into a sharp needle ahead of them. “We’ve been fighting and running without rest for a long time now, let us rest a while here.” Meng suggests offhandedly as he flops on the ground.

Zhang frowns. Meng signals with his eyes for Zhang to sit next to him.

Before Zhang can speak, Meng whispers under his breath, “There is an ambush ahead. I can sense the killing intent.” Out loud, his words are completely different. “It’s been an arduous journey but we are finally safe now. Let them try to catch up with us again.” He pretends to snort contemptuously.

Meng feels his insides churning like a stew simmering in a pot. Here is another trap descending upon them, like a cage falling down atop our heads. This time it might be too late to side-step or even roll aside.

***

Xun Zhen feels his own consciousness emerging from amidst fog clouds, white as newly made cotton and as thick. He opens his eyelids and sits up. Completely confused over the surroundings, the words slip out of him, “Where am I?”

Zhang sees Xun Zhen sitting up and feels a pang. The last stage of Morning Dew, like the recovery before the final departure from the mortal realm. It is all destined, no one can truly escape from the Threads of Fate.

“We are almost there. Taking a much needed break.” Meng proclaims in a booming voice. This is followed by a small twitch that his left eye makes.

Xun Zhen is puzzled. “W…”

Meng signals him to silence and then promptly changes hand gestures to encourage him to speak up. “From here on, we can start watching out for the plant. It likes to grow in moist places out of the sun. Look among cracks between boulders, under shades of other plants.”

Meng whispers, “Is it true what you are saying?”

Xun Zhen shakes his head, once, so slightly that Meng almost misses it. What is going on? Xun Zhen mouths.

Ambush. Meng mouths back. “Right, we will start looking then.”

The three of them pretend to spread out to start a search. “What does the plant look like?” Meng calls over his shoulder as he bends to examine the plants growing on the side of the mountain more closely.

“As its name indicates, each of its flowers has nine rings on the periphery of its petals. Its flowering season has already gone past so we are looking for its plant stalk. One with thorns protruding out from the central stem….”

“They all look pretty alike to me.” Meng says in frustration after doing some careful shuffling of the plants in front of him. “Wait, what about this one? Is this it?” He suddenly makes a loud exclamation.

The two mages converge on the ‘discovery’. “So what do we do now?” Meng whispers urgently. “By the way, is that description real?”

Zhang, knowing that his own powers are useless, does not speak. He gazes at Xun Zhen who will take this on hand.  Meng follows his gaze.

“Yes, it is, they will know something’s up otherwise. Can I have the crystal I gave you back?”

“Oh,” Meng sets to searching for the crystal on his own body, finally finding it being tucked into his waistband, “here it is.” He hands it over to the Imperial Master Geomancer. He waits expectantly to see what the mage would do with the crystal.

Xun Zhen puts the crystal in between his palms and closes his eyes. After an interminable pause when he reopens his palms, a dull gray prism lies on it. He motions for the three of them to squat down and gather closer together and then closes his eyes again.

“I have turned us invisible. We just need to be careful about not making noise.”

“What about the horses?” Meng whispers.

Xiu (Put Away).” Zhang pronounces and the two horses shrink unbelievably fast into their original size and then flutter back into the palms of the old mage, so quick that Meng can hardly register the transition. “The next time you want to summon them again, just say the word Hui (Return) and they will appear again.” Zhang tells Meng, handing over the fabric figures of the two horses onto Meng’s safekeeping. Something within Meng flutters but he puts them away as ordered.

The three of them carefully creep past the ambushers. Meng can feel his muscles seizing up due to apprehension

[over the two mages even though they have proved themselves to be experienced
in moving efficiently and silently across mountain terrain]

.  After what seems like years, they make it past the ambushers. Meng looks back and breathes out a sigh of relief when he sees the ambushers still squatting down among the foliage with backs turned to them.

***

They’ve already spent two hours climbing the mountain and equally as long in searching for the plant they need. In that time, Meng’s mind cannot help but drift off, to where his Captain now lies. They didn’t have time for a proper burial, being on the road and given the urgency of their mission. Meng wonders how far along the Huang Quan Lu (Path of the Yellow Fountain), the path leading to the nether realm, the Captain has walked. Has he already climbed the Wang Xiang Tai (Observatory of Homeland) and gazed upon where he has been raised and his family back there? But then the Captain wouldn’t have seen him there. Mayhaps he will still be able to make it to the Captain’s mortal home when he comes back to visit on the Seventh Day. So that they can have a final parting.

“This is what we have come for.” The old Geomancer announces, nodding towards a plant that has already withered. It is the only one of its kind as far as Meng can see.

Meng nearly trips over himself as he backs away from where he stands. Is that what they have come for? A withered plant?

“Look more carefully.” The kindly mage tells him, pointing at a spot next to the withered plant where a new sapling can be seen.

“But we need a grown plant, not a sapling for the cure.” The Imperial Master Geomancer dampens Meng’s hopes. Is the Captain’s life to go to waste?

Zhang turns to his student. “The time has come. I left because I wanted to grasp the single Thread of Chance for us. I did not want to lose that most dear to me- you, the pupil that I’m proudest of. I would have liked to give you more time to fit into the place that I vacated. I see that you have not adjusted easily and I’m sorry for the grief caused you by my oversight- I never planned for such lack of time between us. But Fate has his own will and he is a trickster who doesn’t like to be bested. Thus we come to here and now. The cycle of events started with me, I shall complete it.”

Having said those words, Zhang starts pulsating with a green light that shrouds his entire being. Then the light becomes him. At first, the light is a shade of dark green akin to old leaves on a ficus tree. Then it begins to grow lighter and lighter in shade, as the sapling steadily grows.

When the sapling has fully matured, Zhang the being of light is almost transparent. He waves to the two of them before he finally winks out of existence altogether. Meng stares agape at the empty space where he occupied just seconds ago, frozen.

Xun Zhen moves forward reverently and carefully works to separate each of the plant’s roots from the soil so as to not harm it in any way. Just as he is about to clear the last of its roots and lift it up, a single drop of dew that somehow manages to cling to the inner edge of one leaf falls down into the space recently vacated by the Nine-ringed Balsam. It turns into a seed, the seed for the precious plant that he had just attained.

Xun Zhen places the prize of their mission into a rectangular container with a clasp, to protect its potency. He hand this over to Meng. “Bring this back to the Palace. I will not be coming back with you. Bury me with my mentor so that I can forever be close by and remember his wisdom even in my after life.” He slowly sits down with a content smile.

THE END